Dear Kinley,
Wow! It's been a long time since I've taken the time to blog. It kind of makes me sad but at the same time just reminds me of the different seasons of life. Things around here have changed and evolved so much since I began recording so much about our life on these pages.
Tomorrow we mark yet another rite of passage. Tomorrow, my sweet girl, you are graduating from preschool. You, my very last baby, will stand on the stage and sing songs and recite verses and make me a proud mama. You will ceremoniously mark the end of your days at Crossroads and my time as a mom to preschool kiddos. I have to tell you, I'm not sure I'm ready. I'm not sure that my heart is quite ready to turn from little nursery rhymes and numbers to reading, and writing, and all things big kid. As excited as you are to start kindergarten, I'm not sure I'm ready for the transition from the safety and security of your Crossroads teachers into the big world of school. I'm going to miss being able to pick you up early for some special time together. I'm going to miss our lunches with Cooper and our lazy days together. You're growing up, and while I love to watch you mature and change, I'm going to miss this time.
I know it must seem odd that I approach this time with so many mixed feelings. After all, I've sent your sister and brother off to school and it's been just fine. But you are my baby. And your transition marks so many "lasts". I hope that you will forgive me for the tears and all the times I said I wish you didn't have to grow up. I don't really mean that. I am anxious to find out what God has in store for you as you grow up. I just will always be a bit wistful for the days when I would pick you up in the gym at the end of the day. I always loved how you would run as fast as you could to me and give me a huge hug!
I can't wait to see you in your little cap and gown tomorrow night. I will take it all in and probably shed a few tears knowing that in the blink of an eye you will be standing at your high school graduation. That's how fast time goes. I know that for sure.
I love you my sweet girl.
Love, Mom
