One of Those Days

I had a cute little post planned for today. One full of Easter pictures, smiles, eggs, family. But, to be honest, I don't have the energy for it tonight. My children have sucked every last ounce of strength and patience from my pinkie toes right up to the hair on my head. I am glad to say that we don't have many days where Cooper cries and fusses for completely unknown reasons throughout the majority of the day. And luckily it's not every day that I tell the neighbor that the kids have dentist appointments next week which sends McKenna into a half hours worth of tears. It's not every night that dinner and soccer practice, outside time and baths falls on my shoulders because Earl is working late. It's not every day that I call my mom and tell her she might want to come rescue her grandson (or maybe it's just me that needs rescued). It's not every day that the sink is full of dishes at 7:30pm, lunches have yet to be packed and kids are still not in bed. Luckily, we don't have these days often.

I'm not posting this tonight for sympathy or anything of the sort. There are plenty of people who have it harder than I do by far. I also know there are other moms (and dads) out there who know just the kind of day I'm talking about because they've been there too. But I'm posting this tonight because I want my kids to know that even though we've had a bad day I still love them to pieces. I haven't been the best mom today just like they haven't been the best kids. But they are still the loves of my life and my world would be empty without them. I want them to know someday when they have kids of their own that there will be bad days. Sometimes multiple bad days in a row. But at the end of the bad days there will be good days too...lots of them.

So Kenna and Coop, Mommy is sorry for not being the greatest mom today. I'm sorry that I didn't seem to find all the patience I prayed for today. I'm sorry for the moments I was short with you and for the times I probably seemed unfair. But I promise to try harder tomorrow and the day after that and all the days to come. I'm thankful that as I tuck you in tonight you will smile at me from behind your lovey's with a twinkle in your eyes that lets me know that all is forgiven. I love you both.