I Can See It Coming

I know I should be happy...and I am. Really. I am. I think. Life continues to move along at an astonishing pace as we enter into the holiday season. I don't think that it will slow down any time soon. I don't really like it.

It's hard to believe that this week Kinley will be turning 3 months old. When I was pregnant I remember wondering what the holidays would look like with a new baby. Some days she doesn't seem so "new" anymore. Frankly, I can hardly remember what it was like without her.

Last night she hit her first big milestone...

That's right...Miss Kinley slept all night long. For the past four days she's been going to sleep around 8:30pm and sleeping consistently until about 3am. I thought for sure that I was in for a sleepless night on the fourth night. However, just to prove me wrong, this little cutie slept until 5 AM!!! I was actually happy to get up and feed her, see her smiling face and celebrate a full night sleep. Kinley on the other hand downed 5 ounces of formula, rewarded me with a couple killer grins and promptly snuggled back in for another 2 hour nap on the couch with her mama. And so, I see it coming...the end of our late nights together, huddled up under the glow of the TV or the iphone, Kinley sipping a bottle, the two of us snuggling. I'm beyond happy to have a good night sleep myself, but I can't help being a bit sad that our alone time is drawing to an end. I used to remind myself during the sleepless nights that it was just a season of life and someday it would be over. I never anticipated that it might be over so soon.

Kinley also continues to camp out in our room, secure in the pack n' play at the end of our bed. I've kept her there this long at the urging of all those SIDS experts that encourage babies to sleep in their parents rooms for the first two months. I've also kept her there longer out of convenience for me. I only need to walk a few steps to get to her, as opposed to all the way across the hall. I love her nursery but hate that it's all the way across the house from our room. I can see it coming though...the day that I finally have to move her to her crib. You know, the one I begged my husband to put up way back in July. The one that has been used a few times for a quick 45 minute nap or to hold clean baby clothes that need folding. Yes, soon I will need to move Kinley in there for good. And I'm not sure I'm looking forward to it. I'm not good at endings, especially when they involve my very.last.baby.

But, I do know that there are still sweet times to come. Last night McKenna and Kinley "hung out" and watched a movie together. It was cute to look at them all snuggled up together on the couch clearly enjoying one another and the TV too.

I pray that they will always love each other this much. I can see it coming...and that, I like.