I sit here tonight with very mixed feelings about today and what tomorrow brings. On one hand I am SO glad that tomorrow is the first day of school. This mama is ONE.TIRED.LADY! The kids have officially worn me out. I'm done. Toast.
On the other hand I can't believe it's over. This summer that I so carefully planned and so desperately wanted to share with my children. The sentimental side of me reminds me that this is nearly my last summer with small children. They have already grown so much just in the last few months. I can't begin to imagine what next summer will look like. If it's anything like this one, it will for sure be a blast.
This morning we set out on our yearly "last day of summer" outing. Usually we pick a park or swim. This year we chose to spend the time shopping and hanging out at Hooplas. On the way the kids and I were recounting all the fun things we did this summer. The list is enormous. I personally will forever remember this as the summer of sleep. The time when Kinley finally embraced the idea of sleep and did so with gusto. I hate that I will have to wake her so early now but relish the idea of the weekends! I also will remember this as a time when I really, really felt like I was present. The distractions were minimal most of the time and I honestly spent nearly all of my time with the kids. I will remember it as both rewarding and draining. It is work to be so present all of the time. But I wouldn't trade it for the world. Even the bad days. Okay, some of the bad days I could do without, but there is a lot to learn from those days too.
So tomorrow we embark on a new journey with lots of changes for our family routine. Two kids to do homework with, three sets of lunches to pack, only one kiddo left at home during the day. I have absolutely no idea what this will look like and the planner in me is a bit crazy over that. But I have to trust that it will be positive and that we will thrive.
I love you guys to the moon and back. I couldn't imagine spending my summer with anyone but you. I know that I will always look back on this time and smile, knowing it was one of the sweetest seasons of my life. You challenge me, teach me, make me laugh, make me crazy, make me love and care and want to be an awesome person. I hope you will always remember our movie days in the basement, our camping trips and afternoons at Mimi and Pappy's pool; playing Legos on the front porch with Jimmy and Ben, making jelly with Mimi, visiting Grammy Musial, the Winfield Carnival, Ocean City, catching lightning bugs, making dream catchers, watching fireworks from McKenna's window, trips to the Freeze, sleepovers with Siena and Kara, shopping, baking....I could go on forever. You mean the world to me. I love you guys!
Love, Mommy
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